A glimpse of my old self

Over the weekend I was cleaning  out the kid’s closet and came across some old clothes of mine I had stuffed in the back.  They were clothes that I’ve held onto for over five years.  Clothes I wore before getting pregnant with my first child, over five years ago. Clothes that I wore when I was childless, could afford to buy at J Crew and when I dressed daily for a job where you had to look nice.

I kept these clothes through both of my pregnancies. I packed them up and shipped them out to Hawaii with me, even though I was sure I wouldn’t get much use out of clothes that had “dry clean only” on their labels. You never know, and you never get rid of a classic black suit that fits, or used to fit. But honestly, I don’t know why I kept them. Perhaps I couldn’t, or didn’t want to, let go of my old life. The more tailored, the more put together, the more in control, old me.

the skirt

I ruffled through the old clothes and found a skirt of mine that I used to LOVE.  Tailored perfectly, with chevron stripes, a zipper and hook on the side with lining and all. And yes, made by J Crew, my old best friend.

I tried it on.

And it fit.  Maybe even better than before. Now I have hips, small hips but hips just the same, thanks to my kids.  These hips, I tell you, they filled that skirt as it was intended to be filled.

And I felt GOOD.

I felt REALLY REALLY GOOD.

I wore the skirt yesterday. Not with a matching sweater set or suit jacket as I had when I was in sales but with a cotton tank top, flip flops, and some beachy jewelry. And I fell in love all over again. With my old clothes.

I found myself again. Just with that one old skirt I felt like ME. Like SARAH. Not “Cam and Leah’s mom”. But SARAH.

Yesterday I found a small piece of me from the days long gone and brought her into my life now. And while we only went to the market and did laundry, it felt good and we got along splendidly.

My what an old skirt can do.

(and yes, now I am stalking J Crew for sales in hopes that I can marry this new, Mom-me, with the old me. I think it can be accomplished.)

Comments

  1. Love that skirt…I’ve got two huge storage bins filled with clothes from my former life. Not because I can’t make them work on the more relaxed Maui as you did with your skirt but because one is marked size 2 and the other bin is marked 4. I’m now an 8 but wearing too tight 6s. Those trendy baggy as heck boyfriends are now fitted. Really let myself go since moving and I know part of it was not having to wear the pencil skirt, heels and little blazer every day. In business attire you feel the weight gain much sooner than you do with a tie dye skirt and tank :-)

    I’m looking forward to the day I can do a post just like this.
    Tania´s last blog post ..My favorite things…

  2. LOVE it when I come across a cute outifit, shirt or jeans that I use to wear and can STILL wear them and rock ’em! Good for you hun!

  3. and now they are back in style too. I luv the whole look you put together sounds so comfy and so hawaii I’m ready for a vacation tht’s for sure
    I’d pull out my clothes but there would be no way I’d fit in them
    .-= Night Owl Mama´s last blog ..Marshalls: Spring Designer Fashions At Affordable Prices =-.

  4. The skirt is pretty. And it sounds like you accessorized perfectly.

  5. Well, I can’t say I have clothes that go back to my pre-baby days (27 years ago, and a size 2 ), but I keep a few things in the closet I can’t part with. My Lily Pulitzer skorts, and some throw-me-down heels that I used to wear only when we go out on the town (occasionally – when I’m not babysitting & my DD & SIL go out on the town).

    I remember when I first started at my current job 20 years ago & I dressed to impress. Well, I don’t want to be a rising star anymore, and get a chuckle out of watching those who do.

    I’m happy to hear you’re comfortable with your old (and new) selfs – a meeting of the minds!
    .-= Cindi @ Moomette’s Magnificents´s last blog ..Blogging Savvy: To get the meaning of something OR NOT =-.

  6. NanaTutu says:

    So glad you kept the clothes and very very happy you were able to wear one again, that actually “fit you” better than ever before. Sometimes it is very hard to retain Your own identity being someone’s wife, mother and daughter. It is a rare blessing to be able to find yourself again and have that “self-confidence of being yourself” again – all the while still being the wife and mother, only now so much better! You are whole again. Keep the skirt it looks fabulous on you and thankfully, J Crew items all seem to go equally well with stockings, jackets and pumps as they do with bangle bracelets, leis and slippas! Hooray!

  7. I love shopping in my closet
    .-= Renee´s last blog ..Reflections – February 2010 =-.

  8. I’m in the process of losing a good chunk of weight and am starting to fit in some of my pre pregnancy clothes. It’s kind of cool to look in the mirror and see myself again. Think I’m starting to put some of my old swagger in my walk as well.
    .-= Katina´s last blog ..Houston Zoo – Still the Best Place to Take Your Kids =-.

  9. Jaimie K says:

    Good for you! I still have my pre-baby clothes as well. There is NO WAY I will ever fit into my favorites again. I was quite small and bordering underweight before having kids, and now… well, not anymore, and never again. It’s just not possible with the way my body has changed. It’s hard to let these things go, although I know they are just taking up space in a box in my basement. One of these days I will give them away to someone who can actually wear them. I only wish it was me…
    Odd how much things can change. I used to look cute regularly. Now after 3 kids (and pregnant currently), I look only partially cute on the days I have to leave the house, which is once or twice a week. Embarrassed to admit that, but it’s true. One of these days I’ll get things figured out and be always looking good with a clean house, delicious meals, beautiful flower gardens, money to spare, and well behaved children… haha.

  10. Love this post & I love J Crew too!
    I bet you looked great. ;-)

  11. I was expecting a picture :( I used to hold onto clothes, but only have two pieces now I save. My senior shirt from high school and a tank top that I loved.
    .-= Lorri Jeanne´s last blog ..Big Green Alligator CD & Giveaway =-.

    • @Lorri Jeanne, I’ll recreate it today and post. I didn’t realize how much it effected me until I kept thinking about it all day yesterday..that skirt, the old me…ahhh…will update w/a pic ;)

  12. Hilarious Sarah!

    I can totally picture you in that outfit, rocking it with your updated vibe.

    I’m glad to know I’m not the only one hoarding ‘pre-preggo’ clothes for some special day. I have mine hidden in an under-the-bed bin and some of those things are SCARY. I’m turning 25 this year so several pieces were from my 19 year old days and apparently, i had killer legs cuz those skirts are too short for me!

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