My children are growing up. And I’m not so sure I’m ready.

My son is finishing preschool and my daughter is heading in. Where oh where did the time go?

I am definitely having a bit of a hard time with it.  Feeling out of sorts.

I’m anxious for what lies ahead this next month with both kids home full time.  Excited at the possibilities.

I’m nervous as I think about Cameron’s new school with new teachers, new parents and new schedules.

I am absolutely tripping out that I have a 5.5 year old who is entering Kindergarten.   And that my “baby” Leah, will be going to preschool, making friends, leaving my nest.

I’m nervous for both of them.  Oh how I hope making new friends comes easily.

My stomach does a few flips thinking about it.

I feel as if I am the one heading into school.  It’s as if I’ve been transformed back into my Kindergarten self.

I remember Kindergarten. Which means all that Cameron is doing right now, and these new, exciting (and anxiety-filled for mama) moments, he will forever remember. Meeting new friends, finding his place at a new school. Learning the rules. Breaking them. Learning the consequences…he will remember it all.  It’ll be interesting to see him blossom and come more into his own over this next year. Kindergarten is a biggie. I’d say, it’s right up there with your first day at Junior high or as an awkward Freshmen in high school and then college.  It’s the beginning of a long long memory of school. And all that comes with that.

And Leah…I can’t wait to see her spunk really come alive as she spreads her wings a bit in preschool. She’s never gone to a sitter or daycare so this whole “away from mommy all day” thing will be new. So will the reprimanding (I admit it, I’m a softy for her). But her sweet smile and adorable eyes can’t get her out of it in preschool, oh no, they mean business.  I wonder what Miss Sass will do. It shall be interesting. And fun.

I’m torn between tears and smiles; nervousness and excitement.

My children are growing up.

And I’m not so sure I’m ready.

Comments

  1. Although I’m not there yet, I completely get what you’re saying. My little man is already 2 1/2 and it still seems like yesterday I left my job (a month before he was due) to get ready for his arrival. I’ve been a SAHM ever since. Next month, little man will be going to a “Mother’s Day Out” program twice a week. While I’m excited for him, I’m also a little sad that he’s growing so fast!
    .-= DelRae´s last blog ..Long Drive Ahead =-.

  2. I’ll be sending my boy off to Kindergarten this coming school year too. I can definitely relate to the mixed emotions you are feeling about the whole thing! We’ll make it! — Oh, and so will they! :)
    .-= Lisa´s last blog ..Starting the Weekend at Magic Island =-.

  3. Believe me you’ll never be ready. I remember when I use to say that, and now I’m saying my grandchildren are growing up, and I’m not sure I’m ready for that at all!
    .-= Xmasdolly´s last blog ..FOLLOW ME BACK TUESDAY! =-.

  4. Sounds like your kids are exactly the ages that my kids are! My son 5.5 is starting kindergarten and my 4 year old girl is starting preschool! Scary times are ahead but I am sure they will love it to learn and explore and make new friends. It’s a time in our lifes that will be sad and joyfull at the same time. We have to believe in God and know that what will be will be. :)

    • @Whimsy Couture Sewing Blog,

      So true! My daughter will be 3 in September, she’s starting preschool a bit early. I know she’s ready for it and both kids are very excited. I just can’t believe though that we are most definitely moving out of the baby stage in our house and on to the big bad world! ACK!

  5. I tell my kids all of the time to “stop growing.” I am sad that they are getting bigger but so excited for their future at the same time. I totally get what you are saying.

  6. There’s something comforting in knowing that, when they are really little, we can screw up and they won’t remember isn’t there. I’d be a nervous wreck too! But I’m sure they’ll do fine…we all manage to survive it!

  7. New post…My children are growing up. And I’m not so sure I’m ready. – http://theohanamama.com/2010/06/my-child

  8. Ack. Keegan starts pre-kindergarten this year. I am uber nervous – but it will be good for him. But he doesn’t like being reprimanded – he takes it so seriously … like tears come to his eyes and you see him try to hold it in. How will he do at school! But I think he is up to the educational challenge.

    Good luck to all the kiddies with their new adventures. And big cup of coffee for mom to get through the day.
    .-= Erin´s last blog ..Baby Cookie Monster Cookie Cutter =-.

    • @Erin, It’s sure to be a fun ride! Can’t believe they are already going to school! Keep me posted on how Keeg likes it!

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